terça-feira, 27 de setembro de 2011

I'm sorry

I'm sorry you thought you had to do that
It's not easy for me to watch your soul breaking down
Even if you don't know it 
- especially if you don't know it..

I'm sorry they made you think that was the only way
That you're not good enough
That you're not better then that
I'm sorry if they made you think this was ok

And I'm sorry I didn't do anything for you
Or you brothers and sisters
'Cause I didn't, and I know it

I'm sorry you didn't have the same chances as I
And if you can't see a brighter future,
I doubt it's your fault
-and I try real hard to believe it ain't mine

Sorry if you can't read lots of books
- oh, my, I don't even know if you can read...
and if you didn't have values being passed to you
- I don't know if you have a family

I'm sorry if no matter how hard I try, 
I may - and probably will- never be able to say it to you
And I really wish you can get over it
And realize you ARE better than that
We all are

I hope I can help someone like you one day
And that no longer you'll think that's you only choice

I'm sorry for sometimes forget to be grateful for all I have
I'm sorry to live in a society that pretends to be blind 
- and pretends it's not their fault

I'm sorry if anyone else has courage to say it to you
To say they're sorry too
oh, they must be.
'Cause I am.

So so sorry.

domingo, 18 de setembro de 2011

No, you don`t

When he held my hand while we were looking at the stars, and he said 
- I love you
I knew he didn`t, so I said
- No, you don`t.
And when we were driving by that beautiful beach we use to go, and he said
- I love you
I knew he didn`t so I said 
- no, you don`t
That day, when he lost his last family member, he cried and wouldn`t let no one near, i held him tight for hours and when he finally spoke, he said - I love you.
But I knew he didn`t, so I smiled and wept his tears, and said
- No, you don`t.
Even when his fiancée dumped him and he wandered around for a hole day and i was the one to find him when no one else could, after he told me everything he felt he started to say 
- i lov.. But i shut his mouth and said - Nop, you don`t.
After a long time, when we graduated from college and all the family he had was me, and i bought him a huge milkshake and took him to a walk in the park, when I thought he was over it, he said 
- I think I love you. But i knew it was for the wrong reasons, so I said 
- You don`t, even if you think you do.
That day was our last day together before moving to different states for work, and we saw movies and returned everything we had borrowed from each other, and it was raining when he left my house, so we danced in the rain and fell on the ground. He just looked in my eyes and said:
- This time I really do love you.
But i knew we would just miss his best friend, so i hugged him and said 
- As a friend, I agree. but that way, no, you don`t.
A year later, when we met by accident, and walked and talked for a while, and sat at a bench till the sun was down and we didn`t even see the time goes by, he walked me to my apartament and hold me for a hole minute, smiled at me and said: 
- You`re my best friend, and it`s like time didn`t pass at all. Everything feels just the same. - he smiled - Except this time I won`t say I love you. `Cause you`re right, I don`t.
And at that time I shook my head and put a hand around his neck and said. 
- Nop, you`re wrong. This time, you do.